When I first became a mom, I began to think this would be the ultimate test meant to strip me of my selfishness. Yet, the more I am in this lane, I realize that the real test is in remaining joyful and not becoming bitter in the middle of my trying seasons.
I am learning that what is most important to balance and guard is not my tasks and schedules, but my heart.
I feel like I am continuously tethering between mountain tops and valleys on a daily basis. “Good” days and “bad” days. The truth is that children and motherhood will be ever changing but my heart will need to be, consistently, firmly surrendered to Him.
So here is my line in the sand. I will no longer tally good days or bad days. I want to tally growth. I want to tally the lessons learned and the Goodness and Faithfulness of God. So when the bad times come, I remember He is always Faithful; in Him there is peace that surpasses all understanding; and His joy is my strength.
“…being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”Philippians 1:6
Ever since coming to this conclusion, I began reflecting, and in some ways tracking, my daily growth. Every night, I ask myself two questions:
What are you intentionally grateful for today?
What encouraged your growth today and what did it teach you?
Here is the beauty, because I am choosing to no longer see my days, and what they bring, as good or bad, there are no wrong answers. There are no bad answers or guilt about my grateful list being shorter than my growth list on any given day. Set your eyes upon Jesus and in the promise that He is for you.
“The desert and the parched land will be glad; the wilderness will rejoice and blossom.”Isaiah 35:1